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Energy Update from the Purple Phoenix Desk
February 26, 2008
by Dana Shino
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Overall Energy Look/Feel:
February has proven to have its own hitches in its get-along with a lot of stop/start motion. It’s that sensation of things just beginning to move again and flow, yet then ‘urch’ stop again. It’s a maddening feeling of not quite knowing which direction is up yet. We’ve been experiencing extra strong multiple energy gateways of resonance adjustments. For the more sensitive, this is a time of feeling the pressures of everything old ‘coming up.’ It just can’t stay. So, just when we think we’ve reigned in an idea of how to handle things, another wave comes through and tosses our spiritual cookies. For the less in tune — it’s just a very edgy time of sensing something strange that gets rationalized as something else. For the fringe — well, unfortunately we’re seeing the results in irrational acts (like public shootings). Then there’s the steady stream of severe weather occurrences and explosions. Locally, we experienced a fire and explosion along old Main Street. Three businesses were destroyed. Fortunately no one was killed but nine firefighters sustained injuries. For all of us, noting things with compassion and remaining calm, grounded and centered (breathing) is key. (Simply said, yet kudos to those who do).
As for March, again, like I mentioned last month, it is more and more an ominous feeling of great great energies monolithically rising and pressing forth. Unlike February of the start, stop, start, stop nature of multiple energies, March is/has one powerhouse energy — monolithic, ever present, ever pushing, ever growing energy (with little breathing room/breaks in it). February and March of this year look much like August and September of 2007—just dialed up a few notches. It feels much like March energy is also pressing into February (similar to September 2007 energies pressing into August 2007). I suspect March energetic residues will linger into April. March feels as though it has the potential to crack things further, a time of more deep choosing (or things being chosen for us if we don’t decide). We’re each going to have to learn to ride the currents as they come (modalities that help keep us calm, present and with ourselves in ourselves are so helpful at this time). March is the clearing house of potentials, choices, decisions in the face of ‘the eye of the storm.’
And then... and then we have April which is wavering as two things right now for me. Last month I said April look completely blank (because there were so many potentials being worked out in March). And yes, it still looks paper white blank — but that blank feeling is also wavering into this sensation: those moments when the sun comes out after a tremendous rain storm and shines through the water droplets glistening on everything. What once was black, dark and ominous sheds its angriness and the sun finally comes out and shines. It shows us what was swept away and how clean the world is now. Gleaming. So, I’m receiving the ‘blank’ sensation wavering on the edge of the ‘crystal, clear, clean clarity’ feeling.
(Have you noticed that despite the great challenges and catharsis we are living through, there are some days that stand heads and shoulders above the rest? On these days, it’s as though it’s the best day of your life with the best feelings. It can be the most unremarkable day — yet it has a stellar ‘I’M HUMAN AND ISNT THAT GREAT??!!’ feeling. It feels good to be in your own skin. I beleive these days are the ones telling us ‘it can be like this ALL the time. This is what we’re headed for.’ I suspect April might have a higher percentage of this feeling in it for us after the March storms.)
Then, there’s May. I hesitate to go out this far because so many potentials are seemingly getting worked out in the next 45 days. So, I’ll say this with the caveat of ‘this could change.’ But May has a dark, black heavy mud feeling, almost tar like. It feels like we’re stuck in it and can’t move even if we wanted too. (A picture of a large, hairy mammoth mired in tar). A dark immobility swaths and surrounds us so that we can’t see — truly testing our faith of faiths. But we’ll get through it to the other side and see how strong we truly are — strong as individuals and strong as individuals helping one another in compassionate acts of community.
A Few Psychic Experiences Worth Noting
As we progress through these energy gateways and clearings, I’m noticing psychic events I’ve not experienced before. Here are a handful worth mentioning. I wonder if you are experiencing them too (or others worth note — would love to hear from you).
- Overall — when I compare my psychic sensitivities and abilities to say, only 6 months ago, there are marked degrees of differences. What I can do now I don’t recall being able to do last June. You might want to take note for yourself. Even though we’re doing a lot of tough adjustments, take note of your capabilities. It’s remarkable how quickly we’re changing.
- Bob first noticed this and then about a week after he described it to me, I experienced it as well. One evening he was sleeping and he knew he was sleeping. Then he found himself ‘awake’ while he was sleeping, cognizant of listening to himself snore. When he realized his self was sleeping but he was ‘awake’ and the snoring registered, suddenly he was back with himself and ‘woke up’ from his sleeping self. When he explained this to me I somewhat understood. Then it occurred for me about a week later. I was in a deep sleep, but at the same time, suddenly fully aware. When it happened, logically I couldn’t really get it to register — I mean, how can you be sleeping and ‘awake’ at the same time? But it works. What’s more, I found I rested as well and better that night than usual.
- Also, another sleep-state, dream-world notation. Not all the time, but recently I wake from a nights sleep and when I track back through my dreams, I get confused because one dream feels like it’s piled one on top of another. The only thing I can figure is that on those nights I was dreaming two or three or four dreams SIMULTANEOUSLY. We’re beginning to dream in multi-dimensionality of multiple potentials at once. That’s confusing and exciting!
- Are you missing your ‘home?’ (Your real home.) I’ve had fleeting feelings of this over the past year, but nothing like last week. Bob and I went to Purgatory earlier last week for some morning ski runs. I was not up for the slopes that day, so I stayed in the truck and dozed while he snow boarded. Once I’d rested and felt a little better, I roused myself and as I ‘came to’ I looked out at the parking lot around me filled with empty cars and felt ‘why do we drive these fear-mobiles?!’ The parking lot full of vehicles felt so foreign to me. Then, I watched a man walking along carrying his skies on his shoulders, schlepping along in ski boots. Another weird feeling ran through me — ‘Why do we work so hard to stuff ourselves into structures of work AND play.’ Again, it was a terribly foreign feeling to be here on Earth. It was as if I was living in a very unnatural world where everything is done backwards. I wondered why are we here? Why are we doing this?
One Coin, Two Sides:
The Energetic Truth Within the Shadows and the Light
My early metaphysical, spiritual and psychic awakening and education dealt with the Light and Light Work. I always called on (and still do) Light protection, help and guidance. Early on I consciously chose and worked with (and still do) Angels, my Spirit Guides and Elementals. I knew of the Dark World wandering outside the Light Circle, but chose not to look at it. My underlying un-comfortableness with it led to my innate unconscious choice to avoid the dark things in and around my life (as well as to vilify the dark). Labeling dark things as bad made it easy for me to compartmentalize.
In the fall of 2006, my spiritual journey began moving me through a series of lessons dealing with the dark. I wasn’t cracked up about it, but I was also very committed and took very seriously my spiritual development (as I still do). (Among one of the lessons was solo hiking a San Juan mountain trail at night — talk about catharsis!) Through this series of lessons I began learning how the dark functions energetically; that not all energies/entities existing in the dark are evil; that even the darkest dark still has a spark of light in it; that some things in the dark truly have no interest at all about moving more towards the light; that I had multiple past lifetimes participating in dark and/or evil activities (we all have multiple lifetimes participating in both areas of light and dark — it is a function of our participation in duality). I began to realize that the dark just couldn’t be written off as one lump of useless bad evil. I realized there was more beyond the labels of ‘good’ and ‘bad’ — and that perhaps the more constructive view was watching for the greater truths, energetic truths, within dark and light.
Sometime in the middle of my dark awakening (and there is such a thing), I read Christopher Penczak’s introduction to his book “Ascension Magick.” Penczak’s metaphysical experiences come from the Wiccan and magickal traditions of energy work. In his introduction, he spoke about a similar awakening to mine from another perspective. Penczak said, “I soon discovered that serious magickal practitioners in pagan and ceremonial magick communities viewed lightworkers as ‘fluffy bunny New Agers,’ while many lightworkers saw pagans, Wiccans and magicians as Satan worshippers, hastening the end of the world through black magick. Having a foot in both camps, I knew that these were horrible stereotypes and that each community had something valuable to offer the other.” His words confirmed what I was already learning – that labeling energy, as well as energy traditions and the people associated with them is unconstructive. This ‘put-things-in-a-box-and-label-it’ is an easy out. It’s a great way to avoid the responsibility of experiencing, learning from, choosing through and understanding the true dynamics of energy (it’s finer nuances), entities, metaphysical traditions and people.
Without really knowing it, I was peeling personal layers and moving myself away from the realm (hopefully more than less) of my own prejudices. I was beginning to see the value in experiencing the dynamics of energies and seeking the truth within that dynamic (whatever the mix and nuance of the energies). I was beginning to grasp the ideology of reading the energies and their dynamics for what they truly are in relation to me and the world around me...
...and this eventually dropped me right smack dab in the middle of my own personal wounds.
An Energetic Dynamic of the Shadow Self and the Wounded Soul:
I didn’t logically plan it, didn’t consciously intend it, didn’t even really want to go near what I see now as my wound and shadow self. I’d spent years in the avoidance department. I was so good at self avoidance I would never have recognized myself coming even if you had pointed me out to myself. This was my shadow and its workings to protect me from my wound.
Yet, somehow the funny guys in my Spirit Guide comic section decided to help me out with an intention (this is still in the time frame of Fall 2006). Like many of you, I’m big on conscious intentions in the spirit of ‘The Secret’ and such. I belonged at the time to an Intender’s Group where I learned quite a bit about intending (which I liked to more directly call manifesting—but that’s another story for another time.) Being the channeler I am, I picked right up on a channel coming through for me: “...and show me that which it is I need to see so I may continue to learn, grow, love, heal and become whole so that I may help myself and help others...’ Key words there, ‘heal and become whole.’
Like a clock right on the trail of my authentic self, the lessons began clicking and ticking away carrying me along the path of ‘heal and whole.’ My Spirit Guides helped prepare me for nine months before my wounded self blew open in May 2007. If you want to read the story of this journey, you can preview or purchase the 3 featured articles in this series at the following locations:
For the longest time, I never made the connection between my intention (my shadow self was working so well I never noticed) and the lessons leading me right into my wounded self. So many times through summer 2007, in my helpless victim mode, I bemoaned living through such painful lessons and ‘how could God abandon me’ with this??!! Until one day, one of my Spirit Guides quietly and patiently pointed out that I ASKED for this quite frequently in my daily intentions (and, by the way, ‘God hasn’t abandoned you’). It’s kinda sorta funny now, but it sure wasn’t then.
Along this road of coming face to face with my own wounds, shadows and self protective devices I experienced energetic entity removal work; working with myself through memory retrieval, clearing, and releasing; and then the beginning daily practices that helped create energetic movement into healing. All this began to give me gradual development of peace, wholeness, clarity, self love and empowerment in much of my soul for the first time in a long long time. Eventually, I began working again with clients, a bit battle worn, yet wiser.
Since then, I’ve noticed a singular energy dynamic repeatedly in play. First, I saw it in myself and then it appeared over and over in various ways with others. I believe this energy dynamic is pervasive within the human race and plays out in various natures and to various degrees depending on the situation, person and energies or entities involved. I’m sharing it here with you today because I believe it is a valuable dynamic to be aware of within ourselves and others — especially within the process and practice of ‘healing and becoming whole.’ (For it is through healing and becoming as whole as possible that we reclaim our personal lives and truly empower ourselves, especially through peace and love).
Most of us, say, 99.9% of us are the walking wounded — and I’m speaking of the emotionally, energetically and psychologically walking wounded (although our physical wounds and maladies are the physical manifestation of such). Wounding, simply put, is part of experiencing human life. (Though I believe eventually we can evolve to a state of far less wounding and far greater constructive, healthy, whole living — and this is why I write.)
Here’s what I’ve experienced, observed and learned. When we are emotionally, energetically and/or psychologically wounded, we tend to energetically split open in the energetic/emotional area of the wound. In the trauma of the event, or repeated events, the wounded part of ourselves tends to abandon or leave ourselves because it’s just too painful to stay. It’s as if we give ourselves a soul eviction notice in the area of the wound, saying to ourselves ‘Man, this is too damn much! I hurt! I’m outta here.”
This self abandonment (energetic/emotional self abandonment) is effectively an energetic dynamic creating a vacuum within our energetic (soul) selves. Well, nature ‘abhors a vacuum’ (so succinctly put by a woman here in Durango). Since nature abhors a vacuum, nature fills the vacuum. But since we aren’t at the area of the wound to ‘man our stations’ and choose what comes in (because we’ve abandoned ship at the site of the wound), anything and everything can come in — and it’s usually lower resonating energies/entities that are not for our highest intent. Very interestingly, what comes in usually closely energetically mirrors the dynamic of the ‘hit,’ ‘wound’ and following ‘self protection’ (shadow). The resulting dynamic is what I refer to as ‘hosting’ because the new energy that comes in usually is using the energy of the person it is connected too.
If you are feeling and thinking ‘Ew!’ ‘Yuck!’ ‘I don’t want to look at this!’ — that was exactly my first reaction. Then I promptly allowed myself to walk right into a fearful living nightmare involving seeing my own personal wound and hosting issues, those in my family and friends and neighbors, and then the extended community and world. I could not turn it off. So much of the time I wondered ‘what the hell?’ ‘What good does this do for me or anyone else to see this?’
Since this summer I’m gradually coming to different levels of understanding (not necessarily conclusions) about this energy dynamic. The first large revelation I experienced was realizing that the ‘hosting’ energies and entities are not the evil villains in this picture. No one and nothing is. This is simply an energy dynamic: one energy vacates so another energy comes in and takes its place (it’s like high’s and low’s of energy systems moving across the face of the Earth). The hosting energies/entities serve the purpose of filling energetic space for us where we can’t at the moment. So, to reverse the dynamic, one must simply ‘take oneself back.’ And this is all about healing wounds (whether deep healing for deep wounds all the way to simple energy clearing for topical situations).
Another revelation struck me sometime in the fall (2007). For the longest time in my life I subconsciously functioned from belief, feeling and viewpoint that I was helpless and powerless — a victim. The more I healed, the more I saw this was ingrained in me and the culture around me. We are conditioned into powerlessness when in fact we are quite powerful beings (Why do you think energies like to host with us? Because we’re weak? No, because we’re strong). What once felt like an energetic impossibility to completely bump foreign energies out of me eventually became my passionate God given right to completely take back and own my body and energy system. (Passionate indignation, power anger and a lot of swearing sure help in the right places.)
I’ve also noticed that the more I work with and in my wounds, shadows and darkness to heal myself and come closer to a balance of wholeness, self peace and self love, the easier it becomes. What once were insurmountable walls are now pithy little stone piles. The fear factor declines every time I choose to step through its illusion. Which leads me to my next thoughts.
Consciously looking at, re-entering and experiencing a personal wound and shadow area of the soul to heal is very courageous. Most of us are trained and conditioned not to look at our wounds, our emotional/energetic ugliness and darkness because it is uncomfortable, un-pretty, painful and challenging. We are conditioned to avoid, ignore and insulate ourselves from ourselves especially since our wounding, protection, shadows and following darkness lies in relationship to those around us. Once one of us wakes up, spilling the cookie jar, it upsets other cookie jars. So, we live in a deep pattern (sleep) of allowing our emotional lies to bump, rub and intertwine with one another in a safe fashion of community. It’s a co-dependent practice of, “I’ll carry your load if you carry my load and then we won’t look.” But, we have a wildcard at hand... a big project called the human consciousness revolution... and a bunch of cookie jars are gettin’ upset.
I believe that as our cookie jars tip, we’ll be required to awaken to both our light and shadow selves, integrating them with one another as we move through this evolvement and increased resonance into 5D. Releasing our needs for insulated and compartmentalized emotional self views and embracing our whole selves, our whole soul picture (even if it is uncomfortable and painful at first) gives us our path towards healing our energetic/emotional selves back into our bodies. This is our integration of our light and our dark, ‘annealing our heavens with our Earth.’ By doing so, we truly empower ourselves with the great gift that is being handed us at this time on the planet.
I will be writing more support material in the near future about the practices I have learned and the experiences I’ve had in relation to supportive energetic/emotional healing into wholeness.
Referrals to Healers: If you need contact information for practitioners in the Four Corners Region who are competent healers who also do entity extractions and support healing, please call me at 970-375-1708. I will be happy to refer you. I do not practice entity extractions, however, I can help provide supportive energy and healing practices after such work.
Recommended Reading:
- “The Dark Side of the Light Chasers” by Peggy Ford
- “Awakening in Time – The Journey from Co-Dependence to Co-Creation” by Jacquelyn Small
- “The Betrayal Bond – Breaking Free of Exploitive Relationships” by Patrick J. Carnes, Ph.D.
- “Spiritual Vampires – The Use and Misuse of Spiritual Power” by Marty Raphael
- “Freeing the Captives – The Emerging Therapy of Treating Spirit Attachment” by Louise Ireland-Frey, M.D.
Miscellaneous Stories of Note
Tractor Woman on African Rescues
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/africa/7124565.stm
Proof to the Theory that We’re all Psychic?
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/pages/live/articles/news/news.html
Cat Stow Away Makes It Home Again
http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/1958244/posts
Man Reunites with Birth Mother At Work
http://www.redorbit.com/news/oddities/1189419/
Mexico – December 31, 2007 – UFO Event
http://www.rense.com/general80/mix.htm
A Gospel According to Yoda
http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=18409014
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