Bridge Time I feel compelled to begin writing the September Energy Update sooner than usual. Heading into August my Spirit Guides said to me, “Dana, we’re shutting you down.” I kind of looked up and went, huh?! Why? I thought they meant, y’know, just slow me down a bit. Well, they SHUT ME DOWN alright. The phone has stopped ringing. My calendar has gone empty. The tasks and projects I thought were SO important feel latent, unimportant and I am disconnected from them. I’m having trouble just reaching through to make simple contact with my world around me. I used to fight things like this, but now I know better. So, I’ve been walking around feeling like Spirit has layered me in energetic insulation and I really can’t feel much of what’s going on ‘out there.’ But I sure can feel things at deep deep layers shifting and moving and gurgling down inside and underneath me — deep in the energetic layers of our Earth and deep in the energetic layers of our living: “Nothing will prepare us for what’s about to happen.” The path I thought and felt I had been walking feels like it is turning towards a new direction. But I don’t know what that new direction is, or how it will work or what I’ll be doing. It feels as though committing to creating anything just now is like (pardon my French), pissing into the wind. For what I create now feels like a hair’s breadth of the potentials and time and energy we are walking into. I’m not panicking. I’m not blue. I find myself curiously waiting. (And anyone who has worked with me in practice knows I don’t advocate waiting because then we stand in the perpetual Dr. Seuss Waiting Room – but now, this time, I sense THIS is a window of waiting time.) And a little bit out beyond the ocean blue, I feel this huge wave of rush coming in to tide, to beach and then it will be ‘off to the races boys.’ (September). I recently talked with a friend from Florida who confirmed it all to me when she said, “I just feel so much like I’m going to be doing something new. It’s just that I can’t see it yet, or grasp it or quantify it or hold it.” When she said that I had a split second of insight and went ‘oh, alrighty then. There it is.” And the ‘there it is’ is this. I truly feel that headed into this Fall the Field of Potentials is so pure and so wide open, more so than its ever been before—we just don’t know. But also, there is the deepening sense of the old energy, old structures falling out. And then again, there is that wave, that beautiful energetic wave rolling around the Earth magnificently. Is it the proverbial ‘wave of awakening’ or ‘the coming time’ or ‘armageddon’ (end of times as we know it) or ‘god knows what’ – I don’t know. What does this all mean? Well, near as I can figure it means we’re just on the cusp of stepping off into the purest potentials we’ve ever known and losing what we’ve always known, with little to no road map and maybe a clasp of a compass. That clasp of compass being each of our own internal truths and intuitive convictions (more on that later). Makes ya feel real comfy, doesn’t it?... NOT. (Excited sometimes, Yes. Comfortable? No). I suspect the most any of us will be able to rely on for a little while is ourselves and nearby trusted community (because our government sure isn’t going to bail us out of this one). So, there is no preparing for something like this, or planning or knowing. No, there is only pretty much the living through it. Sometimes this has made me feel very fearful and nervous because, Jesus, how the hell do you prepare for something like this? (I’m a Virgo and God knows that Virgo’s must have ALL their little ducks in a row before ANYTHING can happen. You know, when God created the universe he first checked in with is panel of Virgos and asked if everything was lined up and accounted for.) Then, just ask Bob. He’ll tell you I get these Virgo ideas in my being and there is no resting until we have accomplished them. Fortunately he’s patient and shows me the humor of my ways. I can finally laugh at my ridiculous Virgo ducks. But I’ve noticed something else and I hope you have to for yourself. I’ve noticed in the ‘nearing of the time’ my Leo coming out in me. My ROAR. If you used to know me seven years ago, my roar used to only squeak — if that (I used to have dreams of roaring like a lion with only a mouse squeak coming out). But now it roars. I don’t even know if I have any Leo in my chart. BUT I do know I get this rightfully too from my Grandfather Newby (who really used to roar), named Leo (his twin Lee and my mother Leonor). And my roar is more than just making exuberant noise (albeit I love that too). My Leo roar is circling nearer and nearer my personal truth as we come into the wave of pure potential. (And we’ll get to this in a minute). If you noticed, I titled the beginning of this section Bridge Time, so I think I probably ought to say something about the bridge. I mentioned this before in the previous energy update and it’s a term I’ll probably be using again. Honestly, I don’t know who coined this? Linda, was it you or was it me or did it just spontaneously occur? But then, there one day was ‘Bridge Time.’ And it’s the best term I know of to encapsulate our time between now, the falling out of the old and the entering of the new. Bridge Time is the rumble in the ground beneath our feet ready to crumble the old energy. It’s the darkening of the clouds before they sweep over. It’s the silver lining of those clouds we keep our line of site on through to the promise of the foundational new energy. Bridge Time is the choice we must all make individually deep down in our souls. No one can make it for us. Bridge Time will probably stretch us past our limits. Bridge Time is our first steps in living forwards instead of backwards—intuitively instead of agenda driven. Bridge Time is banding together as community to help one another. Bridge Time is the transformation of our Earth and this country. Bridge Time is learning to live more freely and purely in love and trust than fear. Bridge Time is the beginning of learning to live our intuitive truth. For myself and Linda, Bridge Time was marked for us by something very special. Gary Kalipolites was here with Bob, myself and Linda for dinner in our home one July evening. Part way through the evening, a tremendous thunderstorm rolled through and then cleared away leaving so much blue sky. In the wake of the storm, it left a double rainbow. In one of the rainbows, there was a triple band of indigo. And the space between the two rainbows was very very dark. Linda and I looked at one another in the rain and knew. This was our gift of sign. Bridge Time has begun. Living the Conviction of Your Intuitive Truth Cynicism and disbelief are luxuries of three dimensionality we can ill afford much longer. The times of living within the structures of three dimensionality are over along with the cynicism and disbelief held so easily within these parameters. Although height, width and depth will continue to exist, their boundaries are and will be getting all blown to hell. So, cynicism and disbelief, some of the insulation that protects against fear, are short lived luxuries for those still insisting on the walls of their three dimensional worlds. No, its time for something else: living the conviction of your intuitive truth. I first heard this phrase last night as I fell asleep. It rung through my being: ‘living the conviction of your intuitive truth.’ I thought, wow, that sounds great. It feels noble. It feels like what I’ve been doing as much as possible for the past seven years and most definitely four years. But what does it mean? I don’t think I can really tell you straight up, but I can tell you two personal stories that will enlighten. These are very personal stories and I hesitate to share them. But I also believe we are headed into a time where our energies will be ever clearer to those around us and we will be walking story books for others to see. It’s only a matter of time. There will be fewer and fewer secrets and more and more truth (and my hope that it is encompassed with compassion and love). I choose to go first. Here’s the first story. It’s about money. And we all know its taboo to tell personal stories about our money. But I think its time to start. Here goes. Back in 2004 I left Joe who eventually became my ex-husband after a year long divorce. In the divorce settlement, I was granted a nice tidy sum of money, that if I so chose, would have bought me a decent home with a very small mortgage payment on it. I seriously considered doing the prudent, wise and traditional thing and purchasing that home, finding a new job and continuing to tow the line. But I knew that everything traditional I had tried up to that point in my life had been disasterous and unhappy for me. And Spirit said something to me about that time. They said, “Dana, it is your money, but it's more like Spirit money. And you can do what you choose to with it, however the home purchase might not be the best route.” I was not expecting this. They proceeded to show me this esoteric picture about using my money to fund my journey. (Which I have). Then they showed me a picture that just about the time my money was dwindling, our United States currency would no longer be valid and I wouldn’t need the money anyway. They showed me the purchase of a home was a moot point. I thought this was really irrational and illogical at the time, but I could feel deep down it was true. SO, I courageously chose to live my journey (instead of prudently living in a purchased home). For a long time I forgot what Spirit told me about the money and just lived on faith that my life would work out (and it has). I have a fully functional psychic business that is just on the cusp of full profitability (which I consider a magnificent feat in a two year period – talk about living the conviction of my intuitive truth!). I’m finally living in the country (a dream of mine) with a really good, wonderful, patient, unique and loving partner, Bob. But recently, I remembered this ‘reading’ my Spirit Guides gave me out on a remote gravel road, where I was taking a lonesome walk in the middle of the San Luis Valley trying to decide about my life. As I now look straight into the barrel of the beginning of Bridge Time, it has deeply occurred to me Spirit was/is right about the money. This is the year my money supposedly ‘runs out.’ (But we all know money doesn’t run out. It’s a representation of energy). As my money ‘runs out’ I seriously doubt we will be functioning on the basis of the United States dollar for much longer. In time there will be a new monetary system. After watching over the past year the housing and mortgage market mire in bad loans (and I don’t think we’re done yet), I see the ‘moot point’ Spirit was showing me about purchasing a home. These are not easy or comfortable truths to swallow. This is not necessarily an easy path to live one’s intuitive truth. However, I find as I more strongly choose to live the conviction of my intuitive truth, I am more in a position of taking care of myself, and the universe flows more easily to me and my Spirit Guides are more easily able to help and take care of me too -- than if I purely follow rational logic (cynicism and disbelief). I tell you this story and the following one to show you and help give you the courage to live your intuitive truth too. The times we will be walking in soon will require it of you. Here’s the second story. It’s about babies. We all love to hear about babies. Through the winter, Bob and I discussed and then chose to commit to move in with one another. This was no small thing considering he’d been single his whole life and it was a scary venture to move in with a crazy intuitive woman like me. For myself, the wounds of an emotionally toxic marriage are still fresh enough to cause me to want to run for my life away from any commitment. But Bob’s proven himself as a kind, compassionate, patient and humorous soul, enough to help balm my old wounds and help me see my way out of them. I think I just create so many interesting perspectives and stir up enough trouble he enjoys seeing the ‘what is going to happen next’ clause in our life together. In other words, he helps ground me and keep me on the Earth while I light a fire underneath his ass. Well, about 30 days prior to moving in together, I had a little visit from an entity. I was sitting at my breakfast table, minding my own business, eating my bowl of cereal. I felt something swoop into my left side and hover. It came in very solidly. So, I put down my spoon and ‘touched in’ to see what was up. The being asked to ‘come through me.’ I thought it meant come through me as in ‘channel.’ But that wasn’t it. So I opened again for the meaning. And there it was, the being was asking to ‘come through me’ as in come to Earth through me as a baby. My eyes filled with tears. I don’t openly talk about babies because its painful and one of the most difficult subjects for me. As I’ve neared the end of my 30’s, I’ve come to terms with the probability that I won’t have kids this lifetime. I’ve lived through being terrified of babies. Of finally gathering my courage and asking my then husband Joe to start a family and getting bluntly told no. Of weathering being in public places as a single woman surrounded by families and women with kids feeling so left out. Of being asked if I have kids and having to say no (and feeling like something was wrong with me). Of dutifully being reminded by an old friend from college that women approaching 40 are less fertile and I was running out of time (and this was when I was single). Of really, truly, asking from a soul place, ‘how in the hell do people have kids?’ Of feeling like having kids is so unnatural for me, yet simultaneously experiencing pangs of motherhood. It’s not been easy. Mostly, I’ve just blocked it and looked the other way because it didn’t feel like there was anything else I could do. So, to have a being show up while I was in the middle of eating my bowl of cereal and ask to come through me when I thought the motherhood ship had already sailed so overwhelmed me I didn’t know what to do. But I could feel myself at a cellular level say, ‘yes’ even when my rational self was saying, ‘no chance in hell this is going to happen.’ Somehow, I had tipped the potentials over the past two years. All that energy work I did to dump low resonance energies, to clear blocks, to release an entity hosting situation, to heal, to reclaim myself in this lifetime and past lifetimes (turned out my mother of this lifetime was also the person/soldier in a past lifetime who killed four or five of my children with a sword directly in my line of sight). (And I bet you thought my life as a professional psychic was easy because I ‘know’ things? Hah! What we ‘know’ also comes with the tag of ‘responsibility.’ Sometimes this lifestyle is like living on intuitive steroids.) So, there I was dripping tears into my bowl of cereal saying yes to the being, seriously doubtful myself, thinking I’m crazy this is even happening just a month before moving in with Bob. One week later, a psychic/healer at the Aztec Show confirmed spontaneously what I had experienced. I suspect this little one is coming irregardless of my rational doubts and Bob’s concerns – and just make way and room into our lives. We’ve already had several comical ‘accidents’ involving this ‘baby bean’ and as a result Bob said to me one morning, “Let me get this straight. You’re going to cry if you are pregnant and you’re going to cry if you’re not pregnant.” I said, “Yep, that’s pretty much it.” (God bless the men who live with us crazy women). And I tell all of you this because I believe deep down that I could have kept this a secret in fear, in case it didn’t or doesn’t happen. But damnit, I’ve come too far and we’ve all come too far to sequester ourselves within the doubts of our fears—disbeleif and cynicism. I tell this story on faith and conviction of living my intuitive truth that this is true and is manifesting. The thought of me being pregnant right into and/or during Bridge Time sobers me. It’s not something I would logically and rationally choose for myself. I know we’re in for a bumpy ride. Yet, I see and believe the children coming through are the anchors of light for the new time, the new energy. How could I say anything but ‘YES!’ and hold the door wide open?! THIS is what living the convictions of your intuitive truth are all about. Compelling Self Truth Telling Living the convictions of your intuitive truth are anchored in something else... compelling self truth telling. So many times I work with people in practice who innately want to hear the nice, easy, beautiful, confirming things. I know I do when people read for me or when Spirit is telling me information. But the long and the short of it is that staying in the safe, soft, secure intuitive zone is like swimming in circles in a river eddy. You just get dizzy and kiss a lot of water spiders near the river bank while turning in circles with the same stuff — until you get fed up with it enough to make a change. ...this is when and where you’re ready to tell yourself your own compelling truth. The first compelling truth I told myself occurred when I was a senior in college at Indiana University in early 1993. I’d completed all of my required coursework to graduate with a B.A. in Journalism and a minor in Environmental Studies except for the Micro-Economics course. The first semester I took it, I nearly failed out with a D. I was required to pass the course with a C average to graduate, which meant I was going to have to re-complete the course and pass with a B average in the second semester. I was sweating bullets because I did not want to have to explain to my parents I wouldn’t be graduating. This meant I had to start telling myself a new truth. Even though I’d nearly completed a college degree, somehow I arrived all the way through school feeling like an absolute DUMMY deep down—because I intrinsically felt I was different and learned differently from the other students. I didn’t fit. To pass Micro-Econ I had to tell myself a new truth: I am intelligent. I can do this. Even though I learn differently, it’s okay. So, then I pulled the stops out and passed Micro-Econ with a B+ and graduated on time. The second compelling truth I told myself was early 2000. I was $24,000 in college loan and credit card debt and my working life was going backwards. One day while visiting my beloved visit spot along the banks of the Poudre River, I told myself the real truth about my debt: my life probably wasn’t going to go anywhere till I paid it all off. From that point forward, every ounce of energy of my life I put into paying off the debt. It should have taken me much longer than it did. But by Spring of 2003 the debt was gone. Some months I didn’t have $5 to spare because I sent everything into paying the darn thing off. What I learned was that with that focus and commitment, the universe got behind me and I had ‘universal gift money’ show up from the oddest places. Big chunks too — like $3,000 here and $1500 there. After that, my third and probably the biggest compelling truth I’ve ever told myself was “Joe (my now ex-husband) doesn’t love me and would prefer to use me and my resources rather than help encourage my well being.” It was Summer 2004 when I ‘fessed up to this one (also on a river walk along the Poudre – I do love my rivers). It meant I had to start taking responsibility for taking care of myself, rather than wait for someone else to do it for me. That early evening, twilight, as I walked back to our tiny apartment that was our home, I walked through and under a grove of trees by the river. I prayed and asked, “Please God, please help give me the strength to do what I need to do.” I could feel the grove of trees embrace me with grace. One week later I left Joe and Spirit guided me through the long, grueling process of a year long divorce. These were big truths I told myself (and then acted upon) that dramatically shaped my life. There are also daily smaller truths I tell myself like ‘what food does my body tell me I need today?’ and ‘what color of clothing is resonating best with me today?’ and ‘even though I ‘should’ go to that event, something doesn’t feel right about it for me.’ The compelling truths we tell ourselves (and then act upon) shape our lives. When we are in tune with this and aligned to it, the intuitive side resonates, strengthens and sings. Frequently I have people say to me, “Dana, I just don’t experience my intuitive side as strongly and as clearly as you do.” I disagree with this. I believe we can all hear our intuitive side strongly, but listening requires that we might have to hear our own uncomfortable truths. This requires courage, strength, practice, patience and eventually shoving off the river bank eddy into the current and trusting. When we are willing to emotionally and psychologically take responsibility for ourselves, claim ourselves, honor ourselves and our truths, here is the fertile ground for embracing intuitive richness. Yes, I too love the comfortable, comfy intuitive sessions I have with my Spirit Guides. But the real action, growth and awakening occurs when I’m willing to open myself to the truth of the energy resonances I’m reading—whatever they are. Here, when I’m doing the more difficult work and walk, HERE is where I truly experience the depth and miracle of the love of God, my Spirit Guides, my Ascended Masters. Here is where I truly know and find that when I am in journey – choosing to act upon my compelling truths – choosing the live the convictions of my intuitive truth – here is where Spirit walks with me, helps support me, flows love and light and energy to me. Dealing with Dark Force/Source Energies/Entities Switching the topic COMPLETELY. Early this spring I noticed an anomalous ‘report’ out on Yahoo about a community’s upright walking (sometimes mad) ‘pet lizard’ sighted several times. A couple had experienced an interaction with this being. It had mauled the front end of their car (doing quite a bit of damage), then run off. The event was reported to the local police, photos were taken of the car and eventually an artist sketched a picture of the being. From the sketch shown, the being sure looked a helluva lot like a Reptilian to me. After the mauled automobile event, the being had appeared a handful of other times in the community. This was somewhere on the East Coast and the townspeople were treating their lizard like Nessie. Not a good idea. Then, more recently, in the past several weeks, I’ve noticed a flurry of reports of unexplainable beings popping up on the surface of the internet for just a ‘bit’ and disappearing. About the time this started occurring, I was also shown some disconcerting things in my meditations. The feeling I am experiencing is that we are reaching resonance levels for things to ‘materialize’ into the physical, and not all of it is nice. Also, we’ve already uprooted so much low resonating and negative energy from our planet that doesn’t have a home anymore. I don’t believe all of it is leaving the Earth plane. I suspect some of it is coming through into our physical plane (this is why its SO important for you to give instructions about your release of negative energies and hosting situations. Please send it to the light for transmutation and/or request that higher beings escort it from and release it from the Earth plane and ban it from coming back. Arch Angel Michael and his seraphim angels are great for the first part of the task. And Ashtar Command is great for the second.) Here are the other pieces of news I’ve seen and I’ll let you decide for yourself. My hope is that you are making a practice of anchoring and running light. Please fill your living space, vehicle and work space with light (and beyond). Anchor your corners and put up light shields. Always remember – we are powerful powerful creatures ourselves. Here’s the news:
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